➜ photos by Brandon Stanton
For those days when I doubt humans and hate everyone. A reminder that people are fantastic
Ridiculous and funny Big Brother-cover from back in the day
I feel like I’ve gone backwards in life.
As a child, I obeyed all the rules and had a debilitating disease that was both physically painful and socially inhibiting. It’s gone today but it defined who I am. It made me associate with everyone on the lower end of the totem pole in Texas: blacks, women, nerds, genderqueer, anyone that would be gawked at or whispered about, I felt for them and took up for them.
And now I’m a successful adult white male that doesn’t hang out with other successful adult white males. I feel no need for a nice car or status symbols or discussions about gas prices or “networking” or any of that, even though I could walk out the door right now and begin a life that surrounds all that hibbitty hoo.
Because I will always see the world from the lowest perspective, from left field, from years of pain and paralyzing fear and paranoia and thoughts of suicide. I guess what I’m saying is:
I didn’t plan to live this long. And now I don’t want to die. I don’t want to go. I’m twenty-eight years old and I’ve learned that the only way to embrace your life is to let go of it. To be ready to let go of every little thing that doesn’t matter and fight for every person that does.
Sorry for the rant. Your story is inspiring and it has touched one more person. Have a great day.
— From an deleted username posting in This old thread on reddit
that I had saved for a day when I was ready for it. Perhaps it was today, it feels ok.
By: Tamara Santibanez, Saved Tattoo NYC
By: Steve Boltz, Smith St